Tuesday, October 30, 2007

What would happen if i had to start all over ?? Tmrw


Funny this thot occured and haunted me for some time as i was walkin home from office ...

What would happen if i had to start all over my life again...Tomorrow.


I wud be the same person eventually. won;t i...the basic DNA is same !

I will be like ive always been... a little confused a little ambitious a little conspicous


Sometimes they say love or lack of love change ppl.
I think needs that special someone to go some extra distance in life. Same with me ... (I happen to be waiting for that special someone though)
Regd the "Let Me Live" feeling, i mean thats what keeps us all ticking doesn;t it ??


As a person I might be a bit sarcastic, I might be a bit outrageous....But i am always nice to people and i htink that quality can never be taken out of me.


I am a spendthrift yes! but then without money I can adjust to the situation and still end up having a goood time.
I feel I cannot be caught up by situations...I want to catch situations and turn them around :_)
Wealth brings lot of problems honey,
heard of anybody wealthy and happy ??


I think one can b happy or one can be wealthy :)


This is the small world i live in...a small social life thats about it for me. Thats the INBOX,

and I don;t give a damn about the OUTBOX { the world at large} as long as the SENT ITEMS has some happiness i can give to people.
Sometimes i sound so morbid thatz bcoz sometimes i feel morbid inside me .... but like my name spells happiness I make people happy...I bring smile on sour faces that is the important thing for me.

I don't intend to sound comically brilliant if it ain't dead serious a matter .....

I was happy 2 souls benefited from me today

I could tell you But that'll have to wait for another time n Blog!


~P

Friday, October 26, 2007

Sleep perchance 2 Dream (:-:)


Itz Friday night...
It was one hell of a bus ride for me today.
left office @ 8pm and reached home at 10:30ish - take that 2 n a half hrs in a bus.
Was so exhausted in teh end that could not even dine properly.

Right now i feel like that old spice ad which showed a White water Surfer being engulfed by a huge wave of water.

I feel I am surfing the net and suddenly there is this huge wave of sleep coming over me.( See this video for the original old spice ad )

am gonna succumb any moment now :)
The best thing about my daily sleep is that i never ever remember the dreams.
I know i do get some vivid dreams but i can never recollect what why and wheres of them.

Boon or Bane.. I don;t know....
If you read Sigmund Freud, "Interpretation of Dreams" - Dreams are the signals of whats in store of us in the very near future.

Well... to say the least I am kind of future blind that way....but of what use can dreams be if wats gonna happen is gonan happen anyway ???
It would be better not to know about some things ...:) that way the suspense stays in life !

wat say ? any comments ?
This time itz a Huge wave yaar....I am faling apart with sleep. I am being hammered now !

~Guten Nacht

Monday, October 22, 2007

e chal e shaane..hawa aane de



bhai ab mere blogs aisey hi hotey hain padh lena fursat main....
bole to "i am like this only"
This is my all in a weeks time post!
I am down with chronic fever [ doc says typhoid :( ] and i am unable to do the usual chores(Office work yaar) Dimaag ka dahi ho gayela hain!
so basically taking rest @ home sweet home
Regd the Twenty20 match ... Australia still finds T20 a 'Son of a bitch'
watched the Federer vs Nalbandian match....man what a match..it waz...
Dil mein Tennis khelneki tamannah jagrut hogayi.
[chal e chal Hawa aan de chal...mereko Tennis khelna kidhar ata hain :) ]
....now about some Little Tasks of mine !!! U know i have some things i always planned to finish(from past 5 years now) but have been pending...aah. aargh! procrastination ??
Nope....its not what ur thinking....just never got the time to do some chota mota things as other things got important :(
Finally ...managed to get one pending thing off my head with Dad;s help....without his help I could not finish most of the Domestic chores

btw in office there was Ehtnic Day on last Friday

As soon as i got into the Company bus the ethnicity started inkling in...all the women were clad in sarees.. all the guyz were like jaws popping out n saying
Is route ki "Saree" liney mast hain !!! (ROTFL).

Bein a Workaholic has its shades of grey. When the Blues get to me...I find ways to un-wind. Sometimes I relax by playing TT But nowadays there is no damn Pardner for TT ( this is 2 much TT used to have quite a following in Samsung bangalore)

the guy whu used to play TT wid me got committed(engaged) last month and now he is always on the fone with his Fiancee[chak de beedu].

So Black Coffee it is for me then !!!

its such a Sedative that gives me an instant high,
Agreed caffeine is bad But then when Life is such a Travelling Circus you need such aritificial props now and then yaar...
basically Profession ke side effects :(

Me waz thinking of havin a Sadak chaap Dosa!!
[can't afford it now though...me munching tablets currently :(]

Thot of watching a movie...but the Damn channels are showing movies of the Guns n Roses types...

I need something on the lines of "Eyes Wide Shut" ... A little spooky...a little weird which can wire me to the TV (for at least 2 hrs).

u know my sombre mood is now more of Kalti maar types ...I wanna sleep like a child ...

[ n Care a Damn abt the World at large....]


~zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Saturday, October 20, 2007

Phone Call into the Future



For some the Telecommunication revolution was the best thing to happen.
It bridged the HUGE lurking gap in the Human Communication frontier giving way to the famous adage "World is a small place".
Like the Connectivity modes had evolved with air travel the IT advances have been path breaking.
But then Air travel itself had reached its Focal point.
Comparetively IT industry still matures every now and then and at a fairly acceptable rate.
Recent IT technical advances seem to be more in the Hardware space. Mainly phenomenal increases in storage capacity on NAND and other chips.
For the Telecom industry its bit hazy, it stands at the same cross road where the Airline industry is stuck.
3G technology which was hailed as the Next Revolution in Communications till date remains a aircraft trying make its maiden flight across the Pacific or Atlantic.
European Companies invested heavily in 3G little realising that the Market for 3G was simply not there.

Economy Riders in Technology advances:
As with any country Economy only blooms when political stability exists.
In case of Europe there was a decent lull in political instability. The third world was and is going through a rough patch in terms of Political Stability.
So in short Markets of such third world countries are what any banker would describe as "Volatile Markets".
Investing in a volatile market has its ups and downs. While you would need to keenly watch the progress.
There can be a total loss of Revenues and bad debts can occur within a span of days. China is one such market where volatility exists even though political stability persists.
[ Side note:) : Communist regimes never had it so good. It remains a mystery to the Americans and the World @ large. Militist regimes have never been this successful ]
The Chinese markets are mainly dependent on the variables in its Economy growth. They are Automobiles, Cosmetics, Housing & Entertainment. Some market research claims that
you can never gauge the average chinese pulse. The preferences keep changing with American and European style influences.
The Demand for such foreign products bring out cheaper imitations which satisy the market supply demands.

In India volatile markets are due to unrealistic investments across sectors.
Buying capacities vary cities and the densities of cities add to such varying buying models. The Real Indian market has shifted from the Rural india to the Urban india.
In india, Foreign Direct Investment fuels growth in some areas such as chemical industry,Pharma sector, IT industry etc.
The opportunities are seldom equal across sectors. The imbalance causes the markets to fluctuate between the stable variables and the unstable ones.
India is mainly in the Value bracket where most FDI create value by investing in research and developments which are a fraction of the cost of that in Developed countries. Where China is all about cheap imitation jewellery, India is more about the development of Value and sustaining the same.

What works in China though is state sponsored infrastructure investments. In India there are way too many riders for growth. While Chinese CEOs might be helped by Financial reforms, Indian CEOs need to wine and dine the political class to its sanity.
In such a volatile political environment many missed opportunities exist or perish.
Take the case of Start-ups. I have always read about Chinese and Israeli start-ups creating a stir.
In India this rarely happens !!!
Not surprising that India is a democracy and China and Israel are more Militist states.
So nurturing value and sustainance is an unheard of thingy in india. Its all about the next square meal in India. Myopic viewpoints of the political & bureaucracy cancel the Missed Calls which india receives in Innovation space.
So MNC job is any day stable because it can survive Market crash in India and US and elsewhere.
Innovation space hardly has any takers.
my oft-quoted line for Innovation
- "Innovation is a continous process....But then it has to start somewhere first ;-)"
Though similar initiatives like iPhone were undertaken at the Indian Institute of Science Bangalore. They never took off. Why and Wherefores are not hard to imagine.
Golden initiatives also need some brilliant intuitive Timing, Manufacturing and Magnitude adjustments. Where iPhones are such a Phenomenon across all Markets. Volatility factors in India are a severe hindrance to such Valued growth.
For Samsung itself the lull in the markets is a time for serious Introspection. Cutting Costs, Excess baggage, improving products should be done on a war footing if it has to survive in the FMCG space.
Chinese companies and Japanese companies are watching the Segments Samsung addresses. This time they are not going to produce cheap imitations. Their directed Research and Development revenues are controlled and monitored closely for Tangible output.
So Volatility of markets in India might be a boon for MNCs which can Funnel their growth via India in a cost effective and sustained way.
A peek into the future and weighted averages should help companies bring out Products and beat the Volatility in the Markets.
4G is supposed to be the next Big thing in the Telecom protocol arena.
Sadly the Technology is so complex and has so many private entities that standardising and commercialising it seem to be a 4 year curse at a minimum.
EndGame : Sometimes a bad taste (militist regimes) in the mouth may be a good thing after all.
Maybe sometimes democracy should take a back seat ???
Maybe my diagnosis may be wrong, what with India booming like anything. But then i am wishing India to be a Tech Super Power, a one-stop shop for any technical consulting.
Well there is no cure for my hypermetropia ;-)
~P

Thursday, October 18, 2007


Jog of Life



I was born in Mumbai city & from then on lived all my life in the cities called Bombay and Bangalore.Spent close to 2 years in Europe, was stationed or camped at Frankfurt.
My behaviour and to some extent my language has markers of these events. They intercept and intersect me often.

My life has seen the world as a gallery so to speak. Bottled emotions exist which i vent out in vintage style at my blog.There are days when i unwind with Led Zeppelin and fascinate in poignant moments about the Music/Moods that keep me going.I sometimes think we all fake life...yeah...Matrix might be for real ?Sometimes the being alive feeling appears so very artificial and cosmetic @ best.The gallery of evidence transcends the signs we keep seeing daily.Shackles all around, thirst for comfort is endless...no i am not living out of a comfort zone.These days i live in a discomfort zonebut then the wise man said...No Pain No gain....din he ?Quasi persistance it is in this urbane existence. Maybe this is the Entrance Fee we pay for entering Life.
Hey don't shout i am myopic ... I am all of 27.10 years old now and I feel I have seen enoughI am not asking God for an Software upgrade in my life. I want a hardware upgrade now.
I see opportunity looms large outside the City Limits. No its not a day dream couch.Visit your ancestral folks in any village you will feel enriched with its innocence and rustic feel.The fresh breath of air... now if you say these are intangibles ...damn you


Sometimes I feel a peasants life might be one damn good thing to happen. Ive seen some villagers in bangalore.MeThinks being called "Out of Towners" has its own advantages.
You are not supposed to behave in a structured/polished way. in short u can do ur own thingy n get away with it. City streets and Life is a passing phenomenon and going back to the fields and nature is certainty. No urbane hassles! whatsoever !


Sometimes "Reverse Californication". While @ work we might be submitted to X-rays to scan our integrity. A village life has pure unadulterated sunlight on offer.You can never miss it.
Indian villages suffer from poor Electricity,Medicine and Transport facilitiesOnce basic amenities are provided at least i would prefer a rural existence any day.
Corruption levels are very low in villages and people still happen to know each other on first name basis.Where one can satisfy his wander lust.
But alas there are no U-Turns in life


PS: All the while i wrote this cynical account I was drowned in Oasis-WOnderwall and the Decibels Usually run high what wid so music in me :) its not that hard to imagine isn;t it ?

Thursday, October 11, 2007

Life time of Symmetry


Its that time of my life when I have to steal time to catch a wink...when was the last time i slept peacefully ?
I seem to forget :(
In the course of today i felt like going outside the office building & gazing up in the sky...but could not..

Soemtimes time passes by so fast indeed...no camera can ever ensure the stillness of time.

Though a Camera may capture a moment. There is no Camera which can stop time in its tracks.

Well i was wondering about life and how Life can never be still !

I c that nature is all about symmetry , we also try to achieve the same during our lifetime.

Except of course our wants and have nots create the imbalance and we try and balance them to the extent possible.
Acheiving the much yearned Symmetry in the process ...


For instance you might find a cut apple perfectly symmetric.
Same way our mind, at any point in time strives for synergy and symmetry
finally its upto us to define and attain the Symmetry

Don't think i am hallucinating! I am not drunk either
nor did i have a bad day @ work...

its just the fatigue of 3 night outs which is comin out this way :) he he he...


Cheers!

Wednesday, October 03, 2007

[QOTM] Oktober




"Then, there is this syndrome about Bangalore. Outsiders come to it noncommittal, curious maybe, but nothing more. Then as they get to know the place, they fall in love with it. And over time the ardent commitment turns them into crusaders, ready to risk being misunderstood, if only to do one’s bit to keep alive what’s good in the city."



Currently all over India for Engineering and other graduates, it seems all roads lead to bangalore!
But Once in Bangalore all roads are full of potholes ;-), The place is getting crowded day by day....But who could afford to miss the Beauty or the experience called Bangalore ??

After the Metro is done the JAMS will be gone and BANGALORE will emerge like Delhi
A Little less poluted ... A little less jammed ...a little beautiful than before ;-)
Frends, That wud be my Bangalore!!!
~P