On "Going to the mattresses"

You know i was feelin a lot blue...and needed to go to the mattresses badly.

But then I had sublime thoughts about the need to ""go to the mattresses"" (Korea Sojourn).

So thoughts spill over to the interesting times ahead.

My mind says oh not again and yippee at the same time (Can you imagine that ? ).

Well there are some reasons for the yin & yang.

And as I can hardly make time to meet old friends or do the household chores over the weekend.

I feel my day job sucks me into a hole i can never get out of!

Yep...Maybe u caught me cribbing yet again....[ do i hear "spare me the details"....well u pretty much got the details by now :) ]

Hmmm what then are the solutions ?

I practice strumming my guitar.

Watch some Movies and crash for tonite!

Use my bike to office on the Morrow ( pain in the neck i swear!)

my fellow blog readers ;-)I am gonna bang boom crash into bed any instant now.

& SOOOOO Good Bye n Guten Nacht!

The Coconut Vendor & My Impressions of Guilt

Impressions of Guilt or is it a guilt Trip ?

Today being sunday. I got up on a laidback morning. I was supposed to take Dad to one of the far off places around bangalore.

I was not in a hurry. My bike was in a good condition as i Vroomed it into action. Papa was comfortable in the pillion seat. We got into one of the one-way lanes while wading thru the Sunday Traffic.
I always observe the minuest of things for a possible source of trouble while riding. Its a habit picked up are having one nasty accident(which was no fault of mine, i swear)

As i navigated the blind kerb into the one-way lane. I saw this elderly coconut vendor who had stocked his Cycle with around 30 coconuts.

I never thought he would do a volte face' that instant.

But yes the next instant he had turned a full circle and was bang in my way. Since I always maintain distance and some leeway I could veer away my bike.

But I hit or I was hit by the cycle on my knee. which made me slightly imbalanced. This was bcoz we were surrounded by a lot of the Sunday Traffic which in any indian city can be overwhelming. So my balancing skills were put to a severe caustic test.

And on the other side the coconut vendor who was around 60years of age had lost his balance. balancing 30 coconuts laden cycle can be a daunting task. I could not stop my bike that very instant. Yet it was more a guilt trip i wanted to avoid.

It was not at all my mistake but then I could not face the old man who was after all out to make a living on a sluggish Sunday Morning.

I am reminded of Schubert's song.

I see a man who stares upwards
And wrings his hands from the force of his pain.
I shudder when I see his face.
The moon reveals myself to me.

Many times i think was i in error ?Was I unseeing ? what i ought to have seen !
My mind has jammed - was almost ajar. I felt the pressure of every breath

Somewhere was I cavalier ?
It is at these times That I find myself in a complete lack of Focus!

the Impression of guilt has turned to an expression of my guilt via this blog.

Am i Forgiven ?

~P

[QOTM] May

Between theory and practice, some talk as if they were two – making
a separation and difference between them. Yet wise men know that
both can be gained in applying oneself whole-heartedly to one.
- Bhagavad-Gıta 5:4

Short-sighted programming can fail to improve the quality of life. It
can reduce it, causing economic loss or even physical harm. In a few
extreme cases, bad programming practice can lead to death.
P. J. Plauger,
Computer Language, Dec. 1990